
MARK GAMMILL
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IN CASE YOU DIDN'T KNOW
​The lake was calm that evening, the water darkening as the sun started to slip behind the hills. Jack sat on the cabin steps with a drink in his hand, watching the light fade. He had been meaning to leave for hours, but something had kept him there. The wood beneath him was weathered smooth from years of summers and winters, from feet that had come and gone.
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The bourbon burned on the way down, then settled warm and dull in his chest. It didn’t calm him or help the way it used to. If anything, it made the quiet louder. He stared out at the horizon as the sun faded, the sky washing itself in pale orange, then rose, then a bruised blue. The hills across the lake darkened into silhouettes, their beauty and edges soft and familiar.
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He hadn’t meant to stay this late. He’d told himself he’d leave before sunset—before the light went soft, before the past started creeping in. But time had a way of slipping through his fingers here at the cabin. It always had.
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The envelope pressed against his thigh inside his jacket pocket, its edges worn thin from being carried too long. He could feel it every time he shifted, like a quiet reminder that refused to be ignored. He’d written the letter more times than he could count—on bar napkins, and in notebooks. Each version had said the same thing in slightly different ways, circling the truth without ever landing cleanly on it.
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Simple words. Honest ones. Words that should have been spoken years ago, when there was still room for them to make a difference.
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But Jack had never been good at saying the things that mattered out loud.
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The screen door creaked open behind him, the sound gentle but unmistakable. He didn’t turn right away. He knew it was Kate before he saw her. There was a certain rhythm to her presence, a way the air shifted when she entered a space.
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She stepped onto the porch, her bare feet quiet against the boards. Her hair hung loose around her shoulders, catching the breeze, the way it always did when she was tired or done pretending to care how she looked. She wore a soft sweater that slipped off one shoulder, and she held a cup of hot tea, her fingers wrapped around it like it was something she loved.
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“I was wondering if you’d already left,” she said.
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Her voice was gentle, unguarded.
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He finally turned to look at her, and for a moment, the world narrowed to just that—Kate standing there, the lake behind her, the cabin glowing faintly in the twilight. She looked like she belonged to this place in a way he never quite had, like the cabin had been built with her in mind.
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“No,” he said. “Not yet.”
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She studied him for a second longer than necessary, like she was trying to read something written beneath his skin. Then she leaned against the doorframe.
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“You’ve been kind of quiet all day.”
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He nodded once and looked back at the water. The wind gently stirred the tall pines along the shoreline, their branches whispering to one another.
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“Just thinking,” he said.
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She walked over and sat beside him, close enough that their shoulders brushed. It wasn’t accidental. It never was. He felt the warmth of her through the thin fabric of his shirt, felt the familiar pull in his chest that came with being near her.
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“You okay?” she asked.
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He almost lied. The words were right there, ready—I’m fine, just tired, don’t worry about me. He’d said them so many times they came easily.
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But something in her expression stopped him. She wasn’t asking out of habit. She was asking because she wanted the truth, even if it hurt.
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“I almost left,” he said quietly.
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She didn’t pull away. Didn’t interrupt.
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“A few times,” he added. “Today. Other days too.”
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Kate turned her body toward him, tea-cup forgotten in her hand. “Why didn’t you?”
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Jack watched the bourbon in his glass catch the last of the light, watched it glow amber and gold. His throat tightened.
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“I didn’t trust myself,” he said. “Didn’t trust that if I left, I wouldn’t regret it for the rest of my life.”
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She was silent for a moment, then softer, “Jack…”
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He reached into his pocket and pulled out the envelope. His fingers hesitated before letting it go. When he handed it to her, it felt like handing over a piece of himself he’d kept hidden for way too long.
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“I wrote this a long time ago,” he said. “I just… never had the nerve to give it to you.”
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Kate looked at the envelope, then back at him, surprise flickering across her face. Slowly, she unfolded the paper and began to read.
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In case you didn’t know…
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I’ve been in love with you for longer than I can remember. I don’t know when it started exactly—maybe it was the first night we sat out here together, listening to the water lap against the dock. Or maybe it was the first time you laughed at something stupid I said and made me feel like I mattered.
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I should’ve told you back then. I should’ve told you a hundred times after that. But I was afraid—afraid of changing what we had, afraid of losing you altogether. So I stayed quiet and told myself it was enough just to be near you.
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But it never was.
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There’s something about the way you just move through the world, Kate. The way you notice things most people miss. The way your eyes soften and focus when you’re listening, like nothing else exists in that moment. You fill every room you walk into, not loudly, but completely.
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You had me from the very beginning. You still do.
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I don’t know what or how you feel. I don’t know if this will change anything. I just know that carrying this alone has been heavier than I ever expected. I love you. I always have. I just needed you to know that it was real.
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—Jack
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Kate lowered the letter slowly, her fingers trembling a bit despite herself. She didn’t speak at first. The wind lifted her hair and blew it across her face, and she brushed it back, her hand lingering at her cheek.
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“You wrote this for me?” she asked, though the answer was already written all over his face.
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He nodded. “I kept telling myself there would be a better time. Turns out there never is.”
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Her eyes shone in the dim light. “I didn’t really know,” she said. “But I think… I always felt it.”
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They sat there together as the very last light drained from the sky. The lake darkened into ink, the stars coming out one by one, sharp and brilliant.
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“Come inside,” she said finally.
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He hesitated.
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“Please,” she added, her voice breaking just a little.
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He stood, his knees aching, and followed her into the cabin. The door closed behind them with a soft click, and the warmth of the room wrapped around them like an old blanket. They sat at the table, and for a while, they didn’t say anything at all.
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“I want you to come back tomorrow,” Kate said quietly. “Can you do that?”
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He blinked, caught off guard. “Of course,” he said. “If you want me to.”
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“I do,” she said. “There’s something I need to give to you too.”
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The next night, Jack returned. He was sober this time, the air sharper, his thoughts clearer than they had been in a long while. He found Kate waiting on the porch, a folded piece of paper in her hands. She didn’t speak right away—just pressed the letter into his palm and motioned for him to sit beside her.
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“Read it,” she said.
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Jack unfolded the letter. Her handwriting was neater than his, each word deliberate, every line carefully measured, like she had been holding it all in for far too long.
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Jack,
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I read your letter a dozen times last night. It made me cry, not because I didn’t know at all how you felt but because I always hoped I wasn’t imagining it. And now I know I wasn’t.
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I love you too. I’ve probably loved you for as long as you’ve loved me, maybe longer. But love hasn’t been kind to either of us, has it? We’ve both been hurt in ways that still leave scars. I know you probably feel it too—the weight of old heartbreaks we’ve never fully healed from. And I’m scared. I’m scared that if we don’t face those things, they’ll hurt us again.
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I’m scared because I see how much you drink sometimes. And I know why you do it. I’ve done the same thing in my own way—used distractions to drown out the past. But I don’t want us to drown, Jack. Not you. Not me.
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I need you, too. Not just the parts of you that are strong, but all of you—the broken parts, the quiet parts, even the parts you don’t think anyone could ever want. I need you to know that it’s okay to be afraid, but we can’t let that fear stop us. Not anymore.
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In case you didn’t know, you’ve always been the one.
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—Kate
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Jack read the letter twice, then folded it carefully and placed it on his knee. His chest ached in that old, familiar way—the kind of ache or feeling you get when something you’ve carried alone for too long is finally lifted.
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He looked at Kate, her eyes steady, waiting for him to say something. He didn’t speak right away. Instead, he reached for her hand again, and this time, he held it tighter.
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“I will try to stop,” he said, his voice quiet but certain. “The drinking. All of it. If it means I don’t lose you, I’ll stop.”
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“You won’t lose me,” she said. “Not if we do this together.”
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Jack didn’t hesitate. He leaned in, close enough to feel her breath catch, and kissed her—slowly, gently, like it was something sacred. Something they had only shared a few times before but had never quite gotten right until now.
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When he pulled back, Kate looked at him, surprised but smiling, her eyes softer than he’d ever seen them.
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“About time,” she whispered.
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Jack smiled too, a quiet, honest smile, and for the first time in a long while, he believed everything would be okay. Not perfect, but okay.
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And that was enough.
Written by Mark Gammill
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This story was inspired by he country music song " In Case You Didn't Know"