Never Without You

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The first time he saw her, sunlight painted her dark hair in gold. Sarah was just laughing with a group of friends, but for a moment, the whole world seemed brighter. He'd never felt so drawn to anyone in his life.

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They'd been together for years, a love story etched in laughter and shared dreams. Through thick and thin, their bond had felt unbreakable. But then came the day that shattered everything, a tragic car accident claiming Sarah’s life. The funeral was a blur of dark suits and silent tears. He stood at her gravesite, the tremendous weight of loss pressing down on him.

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Now, months later, he found himself again walking through the graveyard gates, this time near midnight.

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The bottle clinked against his palm as he stumbled through the rows of weathered tombstones. A chill wind whipped through the graveyard, stirring the skeletal branches of the dark trees. Each gust sent shivers down his spine, but he pressed on, fueled by a desperate longing.

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The whiskey burned his throat, offering a temporary reprieve from the pain. He swigged again, the liquid warming his insides. Sarah's grave was somewhere in this endless sea of stone, a tiny island in a vast ocean of grief.

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He paused, squinting at the faded inscriptions. A name, a date... no, not her. Frustration gnawed at him. He took another drink, the world blurring at the edges. A sudden noise made him stop. A twig snapped, a distant rustle in the undergrowth. His heart pounded in his chest.

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He turned, the bottle forgotten in his hand. A shadowy figure loomed in the darkness, its form indistinct. Fear, cold and sharp, pierced him. He stumbled backward, the bottle slipping from his grasp.

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"Sarah?" he whispered, his voice trembling.

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The figure emerged from the shadows, its form solidifying into Sarah's familiar shape. Yet, there was something off, something ethereal about her. Her eyes, once filled with warmth, now held a haunting coldness.

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"You shouldn't be here," she said, her voice a chilling whisper.

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"I really miss you," he replied, his voice thick with emotion.

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Sarah shook her head, a sad smile playing on her lips. "You need to let go. It's time to move on."

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"But I can't," he protested. "I still love you so much."

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"Love is not enough," she countered. "It's time to look forward and embrace the future, not cling to the past."

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He stared at her, disbelief etched on his face. "You're... you're real?"

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Sarah's expression softened. "I'm not the woman you once knew." I'm a memory, a ghost."

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A cold wind howled through the graveyard, and Sarah began to fade. "Remember, let go, let me go" she urged, her voice growing distant. "For your own sake."

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With a final, mournful sigh, Sarah vanished, leaving him alone in the darkness. The wind howled louder, carrying her words on its icy breath. He shivered, not from the cold, but from the realization of her truth.

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He sank to the ground, the cold earth seeping into his clothes. The bottle of Jack Daniel’s lay forgotten at his side. He stared at Sarah's gravestone, the inscription etched into the marble.

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"Please, come back," he pleaded, his voice barely a whisper. "I can't make it without you."

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A sudden gust of wind rattled the trees, and Sarah's spectral form materialized once more. But this time, her expression was one of pure anger.

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"I told you to let go!" she yelled. "You're selfish, clinging to the past. You're destroying yourself."

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He tried to reach out, but his hand passed through her. "I can't," he confessed. "I need you."

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"You need to move on," she said, her voice stern. "You need to live your life."

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"Without you?" he asked, his voice filled with despair.

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"Yes," she replied. "Without me."

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With a final, angry gesture, Sarah vanished, leaving him alone in the cold, dark night. The wind howled, mocking his misery. As the first rays of dawn painted the sky, he finally stood up, the weight of his grief still so heavy on his shoulders. He knew she was right, he needed to let go.

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The cold morning air stung his face as he stumbled back to his car. His head throbbed, a constant reminder of the night's torment. He fumbled with the keys, finally unlocking the trunk. Inside, a case of 100 proof whiskey glinted in the dim light. He pulled it out, a grim determination settling over him.

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Returning to the graveyard, he sat by Sarah's grave, another bottle clutched in his trembling hands. With each swig, the world grew a little hazier, the pain a little more bearable. He thought of Sarah, of their life together, of her beauty, of the love they had shared. But the more he drank, the more he concluded that without her, life was meaningless.

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As the sun slowly began its rise over the graveyard, he emptied another bottle. The world spun, colors blurring into a kaleidoscope of darkness. He closed his eyes, a single tear rolling down his cheek. In the quiet embrace of the morning light, he found peace, a final resting place beside the love he could not let go.

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The morning sun cast long, mournful shadows over the graveyard. A cemetery worker, making his rounds, stumbled upon a tragic sight. There, at Sarah's grave, lay a man, his lifeless form lying next to her cold, hard stone. An empty whiskey bottle lay nearby, a silent witness to the man's despair.

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He had joined her at last, a final terrible act of love and desperation. In death, they were together, whether he had truly joined her in eternity, or if his soul was lost in the depths of despair, remains a mystery, a haunting question etched into the fabric of the universe. The graveyard, once a place of quiet repose, now held another haunting tale of love and loss. As the wind whispered again through the ancient trees, a sense of both peace and profound sadness settled over the scene.

 

Mark Gammill 11/2024